Acceptance

You know, sometimes in life you will just have to accept that you may never be accepted. I rationalized a few months back that what prevents people from finding happiness or being satisfied with who they are is their fear of being alone and not accepted. That fear keeps you in the control of others. Some people will have hundreds of friends, while you may have none. But what no one will tell you is that you can still have happiness even if you are alone.

People are quick to say being alone is a life not worth living...but sometimes you have no choice, or you do, but the alternative is too draining. The alternative is to be a pushover.

You are left with the decision. Be you and proud of it or let people talk down to you and mistreat you just so you can have "friends". In the end you never truly have friends, and you put yourself through an unnecessary hell of being walked on by fakes.

Sometimes there really is nothing you can do about a situation other than to let it go and to do your own thing.

I realized I kept putting so much energy into people so undeserving of it. I could use that energy for homework.

Finding happiness has nothing to do with how many friends you have. It simply has to do with the situation you are in, and the resources you have. Yes the kind of fun you will have is going to be different than with a group...but the thing is, one just has to learn to adapt.

Its like love. You can't force a guy to like you. You may end up never falling in love or finding it. But your life doesn't have to revolve around the need of a guy. Its the response to the situation that will dictate happiness or not. Its not necessarily whether you remain optimistic or pessimistic. Its how you accept the situation itself and the steps you take afterword that really matter.